life tours: the curse of loving people

i think it is best when i write these things in english first. the whole native speaking role takes place. alrighty then....

the last couple days have been quite the roller coaster rides... not just from my dads driving :)

i had thought that i would be on the way to rapid today, but decided to stay one more day to visit another bible study group that my dad goes to. it is so cool how much he loves me and likes telling others about me or proudly says.. this is my son! i am thankful that God has rebuild our relationship.

so it is forsure worth waiting another day and being with my dad and the people here. i will miss them when i am away... ach.. the curse of loving people is the pain of be separated from them to be with other.

i will continue to trust God with job search and hunt. He laid on my heart to be in rapid.. and ive had to turn down a couple opportunities. so i am expecting something super and quick too.. either way i am excited to head up to rapid and see more family and get a job.

i am also missing Katharina.. a load! and trusting God with the things of emotions and worries or what not. i am thankful for the time we get to skype, but it is shrinking as we both have more responsibilities during this time of preparing for the future. so you would think that when we speak it would be.. hey.. so good that we are talking.. but it is more.. a sadness that we are apart and cant talk long.. and instead of cramming our conversation with this and that.. i find myself not wanting to speak but just enjoy. please pray again this sadness! that we could be filled with joy to talk.. whether it is 5 minutes.. or more... or even less. that we would be filled with the love and joy of God, knowing that He is with us and enjoy His presence with us together even when we are apart. thank you for the prayers!

in other news..

i have really enjoyed the time here already and am sorry for the ladies at church sunday that i wont see this time around. but know that it is not my last time here.. !!!

the groups i have see have been a blessing and thank you all here for the prayers! i know that He hears them and has given us an extra truck load full of grace and love.

my cold is getting better. simple tasks like breathing should not be taking for granted.

Katharina is learning a lot! the assignments are of course intense but super good (i would say). i am super stoked for her and am so proud of her for following through with steps of faith and patience. she is also able to concentrate better! Halleluja to God! and she is enjoying being there.

please pray for the funds for her school. and faith to not worry about it.. also for her body and health, that it would be complete sync with the way God designed it.

tomorrow i hitch to rapid. i pray for His grace. as far as i know, my dad will drop me off before sunrise because he works early, then i spend my time in prayer as i wait for a ride.

then.. the job hunt begins.

God has already blessed me muchly. but i know i will need continual strength to keep my eyes on Him in this time and work as hard as i can, not questioning or doubting what He has called me to.. and the same goes for kathy. that she would also press through with faith and we would use this time as best as we can.

thank you all for the prayers. and i honestly mean it when i say that He hears them. though sometimes things are hard, He is always with us. i know because even what i have been through in the hard times couldnt have brought me here without Him.

He is with us. this i know.

Papa, help us see You. i am sorry for the stupid things i do, or the attitude that i have. or the times that i am selfish or unconcerning. please lay these things aside once again and help me do that too, to just look upon Your greatness. i know that all my silly worries and ideas are nothing compared to Your love and grace. please fill us new with Your mercy and joy. help us give over this yoke that we carry and just concern ourselves with Your matters, Your heart and Your plans and desires. please take us further into Your presence and grow us. please take all doubt and stress away that we could once again just feel Your peace through it all.

You say that You will never leave us or forsake us. You say not to be scared, because You are always with us. and You say that You are on our side.

ok!

i believe You. please help us love You more than anything else in this entire world!

we hand it all over to You once again.

and thank You for everything!!!

... for hearing us.

... and being near to us through it all.

Your plans are soooo good! please do it all in Your timing.. and forgive us of our failures.

i love You God and want to do it right.

use us for Your plans.

thank You Daddy for hearing me.

please bless all those who read this. shower them with Your presence and strip away everything that hinders us from You.