fare thee well

I think updates are important for oneself evaluation.

Between munching a german breze, croissant and gulping yet again chocolate milk, i'm stuck considering the last weeks and their results in my life and future.

Although my mind is filled with storms of snow and wind... it is also filled with sunshine and short sights of blue skies in the (hopefully near) future...

Fall time has already subtly arrived...
The air is fresh with scents of foliage...
The wind carries a crisp chill...
Pumpkins are sold on the streetside...
And i am happy.

I am sad, frustrated, excited, pissed, at ease, at peace, hurt and yet happy.

Fare thee well...

good medicine

has it really been two years since i last posted anything?

i don't expect anyone to answer that....

but it really has been some time now and has started making me wonder....
why?

maybe i have lacked the time and topic?
i haven't... well, maybe some time... and maybe the only topics i have had are ones i don't desire posting online...

maybe i haven't wanted to?
which is kinda true... because of the topic thing above... or i just imagined that not sharing any news would keep conflict down... ...maybe the major news reporters should try that! seems to work ;)

maybe it's because expressing inner feelings takes many forms and is done through various ways?
this includes... and has always included for me... spending time outside in nature. also spending time alone. or spending time outside in nature alone. damn i'm good...hehehe.

though all of them are probably true... otherwise i wouldn't have thought of them.... ....i tried making some shit up but couldn't. shows my originality right now... or lack there of.... yeah, like i said, though they all have truth in them, i tend more towards the last one.

life changes.

with that... the way we do things... not only the things we do.

i have noticed over the last years the way i live life has changed.

some ways better (i hope)

and some ways maybe not...

but what's important in all of it is to stay true.

bullshit, laugh, cry, yell, laugh some more (try this a lot... seems like good medicine) and learn to say sorry and thank you.

details are saved for private.
though born american, i have learned that not everyone wants to know. and those golden few who do may wish they haven't after or maybe you'll wish that they don't know.

good.

so as i sit here having drunk all my chocolate milk... i hope the way you are living life has changed too.
through good...
through bad...
through the unknown...

it would be a shame if we all expected everything to always stay the same.