not pretending!

my feet are starting to be numb. with them on a hard wooden chair, as well as sitting on one of these same chairs, i am just so ready to be with God.

opposition is evident and possibly a way of proofing desires.

as i have been pursuing this opportunity with purpose, i have already been hit with things left and right. but during all this garbage coming at me, it don't feel that i am suppose to abandon all and flee.

yesterday was a big day for pursuing the possible next step, and maybe it shouldn't be a surprise when i felt the joy stripped from me. many many good things happened yesterday, but in the midst of it all, i was left feeling... alone... or at least wanting to be left alone.

today was a different kind of blow...

i had a very good day. i will not fail to recognize that! i was even blessed in a couple unexpected ways.. but later in the evening, i was informed that i have been summoned to jury duty.

WHAT?!

jury duty, for pennington county... i don't even live there. it is where i grew up, but i have since then moved many places and hold a drivers license in Oregon.

it is dated for the month of feb. i do understand that i am suppose to uphold this right and privilege.. if i at least lived in that county. however, i don't. and if it weren't for visiting my family right now, i wouldn't even be in s.dakota.

please forgive any hint of complaining.. i do, however, desire to keep you updated, and muchly require pray and continual guidance over all this.

Father, may Your hand continue to lead us. help me take the necessary steps of faith, but stop when i am not longer sensing Your hand. i know that You will make the path clear for where You do desire me to go... and that You will never forsake. please make us part of Your plan! it is indeed the best! i love You, and truly thank You for sending Jesus in my spot. thank You for bringing me back to You!

in His victory we pray, so be it! let it be!

i am stoked to say i sent in my app. for a visa, and got some support letters out.

i believe truly the next step is to continue seek Him and lift this all to His hands. Vater, Ich vertraue auf Dich! please give me a heart for Your people!

thank you all so much for the prayers.. the continual support... for reading my blog.. and allowing God's love to flow through you to my heart as encouragement.

this may be true for some of you... you know that thing that you've pushed back in priorities because things just kept piling on...

is anything impossible for God?

steps of faith!

viel liebe, israel