matters

for the longest time, and still quite frequently, i find myself feeling like i have to do something to earn grace or approval from my Father...

i know i'm not the only one who feels this way.

it sickens me...

but reminds me that i still need a lot of work. 

however, the short and small times that i do comprehend my Daddy's love for me, 

it's real...

i fell like i'm in a rain storm being soaked by His favor, gasping for air and dripping with joy!

there is something about the way the sun shines in the evening... i mean, the way the light falls on a neighborhood...    across a field...        or over a vast array of mountains covered in a mixture of pines 

evergreens 

and snow...

snow in itself is amazing. many say it is a bother or dreadful...

no way...

the joy of a snow day...   seeing the way it blows around in the light of a street lamp...

watching it slowly cover everything...     

i really like when i'm stuck somewhere because the roads are too dangerous to drive on. and the intensity of trying to go outside to see for myself, just to make sure i'm not dreaming. then... going back inside and knowing there is nothing i can do, but enjoy it. i really like it when the company i am with consists of at least one person i would pick to be stuck somewhere with for more than a few hours... or days...!

the snow day can really either be a huge blessing, or heck on a stick!

it may cause you to stop working, and rest.. interact with others who otherwise you would avoid... or give you a dang good reason to make something yummy, and eat as much of it as you want!!!

rest is good.

recharging is good.

trusting God is good.

and i'm thankful for all of them. i need all of them. it proves difficult to trust without the ability to rest and recharge. 

it has been a busy season in life...     i think the snow has given me a reason to rethink some things, some matters, and test what i thought was so clear. it's a good thing to do, to take a step back from ones self, and think...   speak...    and listen....      to pray.

Father, thank You for the desires You have placed in our hearts. thank You for the wisdom and freewill You give us...   and most of all, thank You for Your gift of grace and salvation You freely give us as we trust You! i praise You for all that You are! You are good! everything You do is good. everything You have made is good and for the joy of Your creation. so we praise You!

thank You for Your love!  in Your Sons name, let it be!

for by this you shall be saved, worship.

worship.